This happen before the Chinese New Year actually, but now only I have time to write it here. Actually the story is like this…
Before I know my exam time, I had promise him to go out on 13 Feb. But after I know my exam time, I really can’t go. Then, that day I tell him that my exam day is on 13 Feb. ,5.30pm., so after the exam I can’t go out with him because is quite late already. Then he is like unhappy already. When I promise him that time I thought my exam is in the morning. Unfortunately is at the evening.
I can feel his unhappy feeling, I know he sad and a bit angry. But what to do. I know is my fault, I did’t check it before promise him. That day I really very sad when I message with him. I even cry that night. But I did’t tell him. I try to say sorry to him, but it like useless. But, finally also settle it down. Then everything goes normal again.
Then, another day, another problem again… I hurt him again that day… But now I had forgotten what actually happen already. Haha… because I quite forgetfull. I just remember I hurt him again. That time I really feel very sorry to him. Once again I hurt him. This is not the 1st time, is many many times already.
That time I started thinking that am I really suitable to him? Or maybe he take the wrong choice, chosing me to be his girlfriend. I don’t know why I will think like that. I don’t know why I always hurt him without aware of it.
But after I say sorry to him, he also forgive me. I hope so. He always forgive what I done to him, but I always hurt him. I really feel very sorry to him.
Few hours ago, I just read the newspaper, is about the love test. Test are you really in love or love that person. I realize that the person that not showing love is me. I realize that our relationship like very difficult to stay long. I don’t know why i think like that. I really don’t know why. I hope is I think too much and we can continue our relationship longer or maybe forever.